So I am fucked. My car is being picked up today but the repo people. My wages are being garnished. I haven't filed for bankruptcy yet. I wanna die. If it wasn't for my daughter I would drink myself to death or something like that (I don't drink.) I'll be 38 in July. Can I start over? Can I build my credit back up? Will I be able to go to law school when we are this broke and I am this broken? Now I'm reduced top begging for a bike. And even that plea is going unanswered. I wanna say God hates me but the truth is that I believe in "what goes around comes around" and I know that I have left many ends untied, if that makes sense. I am not a bad person, but I am a severely depressed person and so I've dropped the ball many times. And even when I do something unkind, like take a parking space I had my eye on before that little old lady can take it, I know that it will come back to bite me in the ass. Every time I've promised to call someone back, or I have told someone that yes, of course I mailed that document out to you, knowing full well I didn't, every time I've dug myself deeper into this well of despair and self pity. I need to be a better person but I don't know if I have the strength to do it.